I was scampering around the internet, trying to find something super cool and fun to do in celebration of Maya’s 2nd birthday. She made it to 2! I thought to myself. This is a huge feat for not just her but for us! We’ve got to make it super exciting! Super COOL! Super FUN!!!
Just like you’d expect, ain’t nobody living up to pressure like THAT. Go figure it was pressure I was putting on myself. So after a couple hours of looking up ideas from here to New York City to Paramus to Riverdale, I cashed in my chips and decided it wouldn’t be a pinterest pretty party. No, no, no. Maybe one year; yes– definitely some year, but this would not be the year. Number two would not be the photogenic party… It would be the opposite actually! Just us, some cake, a few presents, and of course the beautiful birthday girl. 🙂
And you know what?
It wasn’t pretty. The “Happy Birthday” sign I bought at Target ended up not having the “A” in “happy”. We ate frozen potstickers on paper plates and put a candle in a store bought coffee cake. We wore two-dollar party hats and sang the birthday song somewhat off key. I didn’t edit a single one of these photos. I cherished the entire evening. It. Was. BEAUTIFUL. I thought to myself, screw pretty. I’ll take beautiful today.
Mamahood has surprised me in so many ways. I am surprised I enjoy it this much, humbled by how much I don’t know, and encouraged to learn that what I do know most likely won’t really matter. I am so grateful God changed my dreams and that my husband supports my decision to stay home. I am ever in love with the little heart my girl has and it’s ability captivate mine. I had no idea I would like being a mother. I had no idea I would love her this much. Mamahood, while a crazy rodeo, has won me over.
To all of you out there in blog land, who look around at the messes and your middle piles (because come on, we all have a middle pile, yes? The dirty pile, the clean pile, the middle pile that’s somewhere in between but surely will be worn again!) it’s more than fine if it’s not pretty today. It’s okay you’re serving dinner out of that 9×13 pan and not that pretty serving platter. It’s really alright that your cupcakes were made from a box. They probably taste amazing, if it’s the same box mix I use! 😉 It’s beautiful what you’re able to give your family. Whatever it is. Easy mac or Five cheese macaroni, it’s all beautiful.
Even if it’s not pretty!