Often I will thumb back over my journal and read and re-read what God’s done in my life. I think it’s a cool way of remembering how He moves and writes the storyline of my life. The following is a short excerpt from my journal… While I wouldn’t normally post a personal entry from my journal, reading back on this from a few weeks ago I couldn’t help but think it could possibly be an encouragement to someone else. I hope whatever it is you are facing, you will remember and see freshly how God works on our behalf! Thank you all for coming along with me on this journey!
June 29, 2014
Do you remember how you paved the way?! You remember how you found a buyer for our house in 9 days?! Remember how you closed the door on those other jobs and led David specifically here to the NY region? Remember how you found us an amazing home to rent? Remember how you then brought my best friend out here too?
I’ve seen your hand in this… I see You, but still… Often I feel so lonely here.
Do you remember how you paved the way?! Can you remind me that you will make it all worth it?! I feel guilty even saying that, but it’s how I feel. Lord there are so many good things about being here… Krista, Jean, Chris, Debbie, David, Joe and Denae, the church, the library, my favorite Italian market… But I miss having true community and I feel like it’s been a challenge for us to connect here than it ever has before. But God– do you remember how you brought us here?!
And then I hear him saying…
Remember how I brought you here?! Sold you home, found you a home, got everything lined up? It’s because I purposed it that way. I made it that way for a specific reason. I am working in ways behind the scenes that are for My glory, My honor and your good. I brought you here… Trust and believe when I say I will provide. Obey me still and I will show up abundantly. Oh ye of little faith!
I’m sorry, Lord. I’m sorry for doubting your goodness, your faithfulness, your perfect plan. Help me to see You in all of this, to know You more. Oh that I would know you more! Oh that I would believe You! I feel like an Israelite who has been led out of Egypt complaining. And I feel like You’re frustrated with me; You’re like “HELLO, been there, done that, don’t you know the ending already?! Canaan Rachel!”
Ok, God. I get it. Help me to trust You in all things. Help me to seek your face FIRST. Help me to let go of my dreams and embrace YOURS. To RISK for the sake of the greatness of the Kingdom! I’m ready. Okay. Thank you for reminding ME.
Sometimes when we start off reminding God, He just ends up reminding us. He is faithful, true and good. May Him who started a good work in us bring it to completion (Philippians 1:6)!
This is why I write down my Ebenezer stones. I know that while I’d like to think I’m a super rock star like Moses, I’m really just more of an Israelite at heart. I am quick to forget and slow to remember. Keeping track of the stones– the many, many ways God pulls through and rescues or works or executes in my life– reminds me to stop and remember. I cannot allow forgetfulness here. He is, was, and always will be the beginning and the end and the middle of everything. Now that, I must say, is an Urban Hallelujah! 🙂