When God Drags You Through The Wilderness

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“Get up right Now!!!! ”

Startled, my eyes opened in a fury, darting across the room with more questions than I had gone to sleep with …What time is it? …What day is it? … Please Lord, tell me it was all just a terrible nightmare…

Still disoriented, I strained to make out the figure still standing in the doorway, the lanky frame of my 3 year old slowly coming in to focus. I noted the stern look on her face was one I had never seen before…

No mo’ sleeeeepin’, Mama! Get up RIGHT NOW!!!” she demanded.

Out of duty I complied, positioning myself upright in bed as I continued my search for answers long after my daughter dashed down the hallway praising my awakening.

My eyes fixated on the nightstand by my side, a bottle boldly labeled ‘PAIN RELIEF’ brought the events of the last 36 hours flooding back…confessions made in the dark… phone calls to different timezones that began with, ”I don’t even know how to say this…” and sitting alone on a balcony feeling the paralyzing weight of decisions that would have to be made, and yet ZERO willpower to begin making them. 

As I recounted the events of that night, I picked up the bottle of pills, recalling each of the 33 hours I had been too tormented to sleep… 

The piercing screams….

The sobs that went on into the night while my husband looked on helplessly… 

The hours that felt like days, watching the stillness of the city transform with the rising of the sun into a bustling spectacle that offered no more than the cruelest reality; that the world never stops, even though mine so devastatingly had…

The two Tylenol PM’s that had been the only conceivable way to silence my racing thoughts…

I rolled the bottle around in the palm of my hand, pondering the irony of its promise to provide “Pain Relief” when in no way could the contents relieve me of the pain I had been confronted with. 

I put the weight of my head in my hands, tightly closed my eyes, and declared to the universe that if for the last 6 months I had been ‘breaking,’ than this final blow had left me shattered.

Game over.

I had only one question left for God, 

“… How did I get here?

His response was as infuriating as it was comforting,

“… I led you here.” 

In Exodus it says, “God did not lead them [the Israelites] along the main road even though that was the shortest route to the Promised Land… God led them in a roundabout way through the wilderness toward the Red Sea.” (13:17-18)

You see, God led his people tirelessly through the wilderness, to a place of complete hopelessness. Even more alarming, He planned it that way!

He goes on to address the people of Israel by saying, “…And once again I will harden Pharaoh’s heart and he will chase after you. I have planned this in order to display my glory.” (14:3)

It’s as if God is saying, “Listen, I know you thought you were in the clear (finally free from a lifetime of slavery and all that ish) but mark my words, its going to get BAD! Here’s whats on the agenda: I’m going to take you on an emotionally taxing, physically exhausting journey through the wilderness until you reach a place of complete and utter hopelessness and have no where left to turn… Oh, and if thats not bad enough, it’s going to get WORSE because I am going to have Pharaoh chase you!!!

P.S. I planned it that way!

XOXO,

God

… Sound familiar? 

 But it’s what He said next that struck me most, “…My great glory will be displayed through Pharaoh, and his troops, his chariots, and his charioteers…” (14:17)

In other words, God will reveal his mighty power through the very thing that has us on our knees and is threatening to take us down! 

He knows what we are up against – be it broken marriage vows, heartbreaking infertility, or a paralyzing journey through depression – whatever it is, it is in our most terrifying times that God will point us back to how strong and miraculous HE is in spite of those circumstances, and maybe even because of them!

Could He have led us down an easier route? Without a doubt.

But two things are certain: Had He not dragged the Israelites kicking and screaming through the wilderness, (1) they would have both avoided their problem altogether by bypassing the Red Sea completely AND (2) missed the chance to be front-and-center to one of the greatest miracles of all time when God made a way straight through their biggest problem by parting the Red Sea!

So when it feels like God has taken us on a roundabout journey… through the wilderness… to a place of complete hopelessness… recognize that just like the Israelites, we are also on the edge of something equally MIRACULOUS!

Because our God is greater than what we are up against, and more relentless than the enemy pursuing us! He is able to RESCUE your struggling marriage and your dwindling happiness, and like a mighty warrior, The Lord will FIGHT for you to overcome your most overwhelming addictions and illnesses!

What you have been led to, our God will see you through. So let us not cower in fear at the circumstances racing towards us, or crumble at the sight of the sea of hopelessness we are up against…

With God as our strength, we can stand our ground, face our greatest fears head-on, and watch for the miracle to unfold.

… Because that’s what God does when he drags you through the wilderness. 

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17 thoughts on “When God Drags You Through The Wilderness

  1. I always am encouraged when I read your posts. Your last few have seemed to portray you in a discouraged place, so I love to read what your battling and how you are wrestling to trust God and lay it all on Him, quite literally. You give words and clarity to many people, especially those that are afraid to question God. Gasp! Cheers to being in the trenches! You’re not alone 🙂 Keep it real!

  2. I am always moved by your posts. They are so honest and so enlightening. I too am in the trenches right now and many days feel that I’m being drug through the wilderness. And to be honest-I HATE it! Your posts though have a way of making me feel like I’m not alone and have a tendency to show me that there is indeed, light at the end of the tunnel and that God has not given up on me or forsaken me, but that instead He is in control.
    Thank you for being so honest and thank you for letting God work through you.

    • Oh Shelly, I am sorry you too are in the trenches. This life is so SO hard sometimes! Praying God shows you how good he is in spite of how bad our circumstances can be! Thanks for having the courage to reach out, it is such an encouragement to me ❤

  3. I don’t know you at all, and yet found myself praying for you just 2 days ago. Whatever it is you know Gods got this, I just pray you can experience His joy during it too.
    In my reading through the prophets, it’s shown over and over, that we leave God, we go back to Him, He gives us a work to do, He’s by our side and we get ambushed anyway…and He saves us from the ambush.
    Keep your sword drawn sister!

  4. Oh, Krista, I hate that you are experiencing this, but your strength in the Lord and willingness to share and (through your instagram pictures of your daughter) even your unmistakable joy through your pain, I can see that you will make it to the promised land. You are an inspiration to so many of us who feel like giving up sometimes. God is using your pain for His good and one day you will truly be able to see it. Thank you for being so honest. Still praying for you and your family. God’s got this.

  5. Thank You Krista I really needed to hear this today. I have been on a rough road this last couple of years. But I never gave up on God and He is who got me through. God Bless you and Ricky for all you do for Christ.

  6. No coincidence I’m certain, but you have been on my heart for the last few weeks. I don’t know you, but I have been lifting you up in prayer and reading the exact same passages in scripture during this time. I have been seeing the parallel lines between my own life and those “bad” Israelites… . how similar we are and yet how exciting to know that even though I may be led into a valley with no apparent way out and the Egyptians on my heals, God is just waiting to part the seas and let me pass through on dry ground. Such an amazing love that God would rescue me, all in his timing and to his glory. Stay strong sweet sister.

    • Sylvia, your prayers mean more to me than I can adequately describe! Those two weeks you were (coincidentally) praying for me were some of the most difficult I have ever experienced in my life! So saying thank you just doesn’t seem to do it justice! But I will do it anyway, THANK YOU!!!!! 🙂

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