Things are about to get CRAZY around here.
Yes, I know. My life is already CRAZY. My husband has a crazy-busy (and yet wonderful and awesome) job, my two and a half year old tells me she needs her “personal space”, and I work full time from home. Even so, my life is going to get even crazier.
I had no idea. Twins do not run in my family. Other than feeling slightly more tired and nauseous than I had with Maya, everything seemed to be the same. Yet when the ultrasound tech put up a peace sign (yes, I really did think she was telling me “peace!” That’s how outrageous the idea of two babies would be for me!), I did not believe it. “You guys hit the jackpot!” She exclaimed, and I had no idea what she meant.
When she showed me the two pulsating heartbeats on the screen complete with two separate sacs and two separate embryos, I was in disbelief. Two?! Oh Lord what the heck?!
My husband, being the calm, non-reactive one, just stared calmly at the screen. He was more interested in understanding how this happened and what kind of twins we would be having (they’re fraternal, by the way). I began crying and then laughing and then crying and then laughing. This was not in our plan ever. How am I going to have twins?! I kept thinking to myself.
We had no idea. There is no family history of twins in the family, and I’ve never been on any fertility treatments. Talk about getting a real two-for-one special!
We have to move. Our two bedroom is too tiny for a family of 5!
I will need a larger car (wait for it… A minivan most likely! My 20 year old self would seriously die. A slow. Painful. Death.).
How am I going to do this without my mom living nearby?
How is my body going to house TWO tiny humans for the next 6 months?
How will I be able to provide enough love and attention to two babies, a toddler and my husband?!
I can’t even begin to answer all these questions, but there is one thing I’m holding on to and that is HE KNOWS. HE will provide. HE will make it happen. HE will see us through. HE is the giver of all things through HIM I can do all things.
The shock has worn off now, and I am excited at the thought that our family will be bigger than I ever hoped or imagined (ohhhhh God is funny how he works!). I’m reading a book on multiples given to me by a friend. I’ve switched doctors to go with someone who’s specialized in multiple births. I’m praying for a continual healthy pregnancy and that God’s protection and hand would be over these babies. I have no idea how I’m going to do it but I know He’s faithful and He will work it all out. What He’s called us to, He will walk us through… Amen?
So now my toddler is painting her nails with white-out and currently has scissors in her hands. I best be on my way.
Thank you for sharing this journey with me. 🙂