“In my best moments, when I calm down and listen very closely, God says “I didn’t ask you to become new and improved today. That wasn’t the goal. You were broken down and strange yesterday, and you still are today, and the only one freaked out about it is you.” ~Shauna Niequist, Savor
32 weeks pregnant with twins this week. Not sure I am ready for three kids three and under, but God is.
Packing to move around the same time the babies will most likely arrive… Don’t know how that’s going to all work out but God does.
So many loose ends to tie together like pre-school paperwork, getting the hospital bag ready, laundry, meals, cleaning, all while working and trying NOT to let my toddler watch tv all day. I fail constantly at keeping up but God’s got this.
All the stress of buying a house, but God shows up. Time and time again He just swoops in.
Over the last year, I have been constantly reminded that sometimes we need to step back and let God do His thing. We’ve got to trust that He’s over everything, even the small details of our lives, and let Him work. When I found out we were expecting two babies instead of one, I held on to the truth that God knows. He knows and works all things for His glory. We get to be a part of the story, but it’s all His story.
I couldn’t do anything but let Him do everything.
He knows, He’s doing things, He is in the process– He will be part of the result.
My husband is in Portland, Oregon, clear across the country right now for a wedding he’s in. The plane ticket was purchased way before we knew twins were on the horizon. This morning panic overtook me for a moment while thoughts spun. What if they come early?! What if I’m alone in an operating room having my first c-section and my husband isn’t here?! What if for some horrific reason I have to deliver them at home all alone with MAYA omg that would be awful that can’t happen… Do you see where my thoughts went? Then God swoops in again. It’s His story, I’m just part of it. I calm down, try NOT to think of Mary delivering Jesus in a BARN (can you even imagine what she was thinking and feeling?!) and rest knowing I can’t do anything but let Him do everything.
God will be.
He’s the only constant in this crazy mess, and He’s not asking for anything from me right now. He just needs me to stop freaking out as Shauna says in the quote above, and let him do His thing.